Fought in combat for operation enduring (((freedom))) a while back. Came back with my physical health still somewhat intact, but a part of me died fighting sand niggers for hook noses in RC south afghan. Took the black pill for 7+ years and drank myself to sleep every night to avoid the nightmares and social anxiety with cheap whiskey and vodka, to the point where I was a handle deep at my worst. Decided that forcing my liver to carry the weight of my self-pity and depression at clown world wasn't sustainable, and tried to cold turkey from daily 750ml self medication of smirnoff.
DONT FUCKING COLD TURKEY IT. Unless you're a nigger or a kike.
I literally almost died and had the worst visual and auditory hallucinations in my life that scrambled my noggin for 2 weeks to the point where doctors thought I had undiagnosed bi polar or schizophrenia. I still only vaguely remember that 2 weeks of tortuous detox in a VA psych ward.
Havent drank or smoked pot in 5 months now, and got back into weight lifting, heavy squats, deadlifts, military presses, benching, and back rows 3x a week, 500 calories under TDEE.
I'm in even better shape than when I was a younger buck jumping out of C-17s, and I have a completely new mental clarity without that (((poison))). Cook your own food, meal prep, stack ammo, edge out that ego, and just be overprepared rather than under prepared when swathes of spear chucking niggers and pink haired hamplanets storm the streets in the coming months.
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[–] everlastingphelps 0 points 2 points 2 points (+2|-0) ago
You've got a mental injury. It's as real as a broken leg. You can't just walk it off. You've been medicating the pain without treating the symptoms (and have thankfully stopped that.) You need mental rehab, just like you need physical rehab after a physical injury.
I'm not big on psychotherapy because frankly 90% of psychiatrists glow in the dark. Instead, get connected to Peer Support Services at your VA. It's literally just other combat vets talking shit out and supporting each other. If VA fucks try to steer you towards something other than Peer Support, refuse. If your actual peers say you need it, think about it. If you still have contact with guys from your units, hook up with them as well. You can't cold turkey the mental injury any better than the alcohol.
You're 90% of the way there. Get that last 10% and get shit done.