Fought in combat for operation enduring (((freedom))) a while back. Came back with my physical health still somewhat intact, but a part of me died fighting sand niggers for hook noses in RC south afghan. Took the black pill for 7+ years and drank myself to sleep every night to avoid the nightmares and social anxiety with cheap whiskey and vodka, to the point where I was a handle deep at my worst. Decided that forcing my liver to carry the weight of my self-pity and depression at clown world wasn't sustainable, and tried to cold turkey from daily 750ml self medication of smirnoff.
DONT FUCKING COLD TURKEY IT. Unless you're a nigger or a kike.
I literally almost died and had the worst visual and auditory hallucinations in my life that scrambled my noggin for 2 weeks to the point where doctors thought I had undiagnosed bi polar or schizophrenia. I still only vaguely remember that 2 weeks of tortuous detox in a VA psych ward.
Havent drank or smoked pot in 5 months now, and got back into weight lifting, heavy squats, deadlifts, military presses, benching, and back rows 3x a week, 500 calories under TDEE.
I'm in even better shape than when I was a younger buck jumping out of C-17s, and I have a completely new mental clarity without that (((poison))). Cook your own food, meal prep, stack ammo, edge out that ego, and just be overprepared rather than under prepared when swathes of spear chucking niggers and pink haired hamplanets storm the streets in the coming months.
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[–] Amerikaner 0 points 1 point 1 point (+1|-0) ago
I never understood my addiction until I learned of a test to see if you’re an alcoholic. There are two types of people, those who experience a physical rush from drinking and those who don’t. The test, on an empty stomach sit down and let your pulse slow to resting. Take 3 shots of vodka, if your pulse increases then you experience a rush when drinking, and you’re susceptible to being an alcoholic. Most of the population will have their heart rate remain constant or decreases. Alcoholics actually feel a rush as they are getting drunker.
It seems obvious now, but I was unaware of the true mechanism until I learned this.
[–] Trope_ 0 points 1 point 1 point (+1|-0) ago
Yup. There are two separate things to consider when drinking: The dopamine-reward sensation - and the intoxication itself.
Blood alcohol rises and it feels great. You get a rush of awesomeness. But that is short-lived and all that is left is the sloppy intoxication which will take hours to go away. The best way to explain it is when you day-drink and then try to sober up by evening. It's only ever fun when blood alcohol is rising. Once blood alcohol begins to fall, it's just a shitty unwelcome experience.