(Sure I could've written this better, but oh well)
I need to vent:
My brother is 2.5 years older than I. He was at first a role model to me. We would build legos, play counter strike, had a easy well off childhood. Our parents divorced when he was 6 and my father remarried when he was 10. Our step mom has been nothing but loving to us, along with her son, one year younger than me.
My older brother would get picked on a lot in school, and could never really handle himself. Being younger, I was not in a place to defend him often, if at all. As we got older, he became more reclusive/anti social. I did what I could, but being a child that wasn't much. My brother hated our step mom and step brother, even tried choking out my step brother once and dug his nails into his neck. He also told my dad he resented him for not asking his permission to remarry.
He graduated high school in 2003, and went to college at chico in california. This lasted one semester and he dropped out claiming he could not handle it. Shortly after this time he told first my actual mother, then my father that he felt he was a man trapped in a womans body.
I was shocked and appalled. Right after this news my brother started treating my father like real shit, which he did not deserve whatsoever. My mother was a drunk and taught us no moral value. My father was always sober and very morally driven. Dad had a hard time accepting this, but loved his son and ended up "accepting" it after a few weeks.
My brother became an entitled piece of shit faggot, demanding hormone therapy on their dime, treating us all like crap, and putting in minimal effort to be a family member.
After maybe 3 years of the hormones he had a surgery and chopped his dick off. What confuses me to hell is that he never acted like or dressed like a woman. Still wears men's jeans and boots and has short hair. Just a fucking gross chest and mutilated genitals. He managed to marry a woman that works for facebook. They are still married.
My father developed a tissue cancer that invaded his sinus cavity and took his life a little over a year ago. During the time he was ill my brother would rarely come around, offering no help and leaving my younger step brother and I to take care of father and my step mom while they were going through this. This lasted for about two years. My father was a fighter and lived 1.5 years passed what the doctors told us he would. On the morning of his death I called my brother over and over saying come now hes about to pass. He didn't show. My father's last wish was to be with his wife and children. My brother robbed him of that. He showed up about an hour after my father has passed away, emotionless. I blew up on him.
We still see each other at family gatherings, but I can hardly look at him and will most likely never forgive him.
Attached is a picture of us when I was 2 and he was 5. Happy to answer any questions you goats may have, and Ireally appreciate all of you on voat. This place keeps me sane and informed, and that is something to cherish.
I have no older brother.
Thanks
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[–] LordWalMartOfAmerica 0 points 1 point 1 point (+1|-0) ago
I feel for you. Sorry you had to deal with that on your own. Hopefully at some point you can reconcile with your brother. It's painful to try to convey my point of view to my family as well. Stay strong and be confident, be grateful you have your perspective and try to understand why your brother would mutilate himself. There's no excuse but you can sympathize
[–] VitGet [S] 0 points 1 point 1 point (+1|-0) ago
Thank you, appreciated.