Our beautiful, gentle, loving boxer who was the first dog I ever had that real human-canine bond with, had to be put to sleep yesterday. Her kidneys were failing and she was in bad shape. My wife and I held her through the entire process and she went out peacefully. I felt her heartbeat until it stopped.
We loved her so much, I wish she could have lived long enough to meet our future children. My heart is in two right now. Our house feels empty and our younger dog keeps looking for her. Putting her to sleep was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. She was my car ride buddy, my lazy days on the couch buddy, my gardening buddy. She used to greet me every day when I got home and now she's gone.
Fuck.
Sorry for the rant I just needed to fucking vent and voat is a home of sorts for me.
Edit: thanks for the kind words y'all.
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[–] CaliforniaOrange 0 points 1 point 1 point (+1|-0) ago
I’m sorry for your loss.
We had to put down our family dog in October. He was 13...I was right there with him when he went. Cancer came up quick and we were able to give him a good final month with his pain meds and the steroids but it got to the point where it was time.
He was one of the first beings outside my immediate family I loved. He joined our family at an age for me where it was really good to have him around. He faced the cancer like a fucking champ.
A part of me died with him....I miss him very much.