I had written a post here last week about the death of my wife, so here's an update. The body was transported to be buried back in another state. The funeral will be today. As for the mental part, I have noticed some issues.
My mom is showing her true colors. In a matter of a week, she managed to insult me, berate me in front of a captain, insult my now dead wife, and tell me we didnt' spend enough money on frivolous bullshit. she also accused my wife of trying to murder me, and decided to tell everyone at a viewing the cause of death with no proof that such cause was correct. She then told me i was scum in front of a formal sit down dinner, and assured me i she was the only real woman for me. She's also devised ways to steal from me, and pressured me to take opiods regardless if i want them or not. This behavior was to an extent expected, because this isn't the first time she did this with a dead or grieving relative. It was so bad my mother in law decided i should go live with her instead, since this environment is too much.
I've had therapy, which i thought was useless, and the doctor immediately prescribed me opiods. Whilst they do dull the pain a bit, i feel like its a big quick to send the griever straight to the addictive drug line. There's nothing in the middle?
I feel like everything is frustrating me right now, everything either gets me sad or angry. I'm thinking i can start doing more hobbies, and the likes, but even those are hard.