So some of you might know some of my story. and I still am writing a book. I was junkie for 10 years, heroin was the main drug but crack, meth, coke, and all that comes with the territory of being a homeless drug addict dating a junkie hooker and sleeping in 24 hour stores, trap houses, cars, alleyways. I've been clean a whole year! I go to about 8-10 AA - NA meetings a week. Bible study on Saturday and Church on Sunday. I found my higher power. God, The Triune God of the Bible, duh. And life has been amazing! I have decent job, helping my granpa sell cars. I don't do it for the money, I do it to have a relationship with him and help him, hes 87. And I live at home with my Mom, My Dad passed away from a drug overdose / sleep apnea 4-5 years ago, I found him dead and tried to save him but I coundt and it really fucked with me. (not junkie just real bad chronic pain, broke all his bones.) So I take care of the house and be the Man of the house. It feels Good to help out and be there for my family instead of homeless in the streets. My family has become supportive of me, Not helping me financially or anything, just a good support system for my drug issues. I go to commitments regularly, thats where I go to Rehabs and talk to the people in them and tell them there is a solution. That they don't have to come here EVER again. So thats my way of giving back and doing good for society. Addicts are some of the nicest people on earth. When I was homeless it was only addicts and other homeless who would help you, not he guy in bmw. Addicts are some of the nicestest people who do some of the WORST things though I know. Been there. Been to jail a few times too. But that was a fucking demon that made me do all that shit. Iunno, Just so you guys know, You all helped since coming on here made me feel not so alone with my view points. Part of the reason I turned to drugs was what I saw in the world and how fucked it is. Now that I learned the serenity prayer at AA it helps me so much. God, grant me the serenty to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, And the wisdom to know the difference. Thy will, NOT mine, be done.
*edit are gay I know, But thank you guys for the support. Deus Vult.