I am new here, although maybe not as new to this particular subject as I would like to be. ;)
Anyways I was debating whether or not I should do this. I really did not want to. I felt compelled by the state of the world. I am familiar with this kind of situation. Imagine someone decides you are attractive and has access to wealth and power. Imagine if the same person decides they have some strange vendetta against you that you don't entirely understand. That is literally all it takes to get you into a situation just like the one you are guessing is going on here. It has always happened throughout history. The children of the poor, as the poor themselves have always been fair game to the more successful and well connected. This is because they have no means to protect themselves. It will get worse as power disparity grows. It always has. It always will.
As a victim I thought I would reach out to those who may have suffered through extreme scenarios that have caused them to question their sanity or the love of their G-d. What a cruel trick it is to play on you, to convince you that you are unloved. To convince you that you aren't desired or that your feelings do not matter. To make you think you are alone in the world, that you are just there to be repeatedly victimized. To become someone's trash because you want a better life for your family and you hung out with the wrong crowd or showed the wrong ambition. To become a vacuous black hole that only ponders his/her own worthlessness and becomes enraged at the slightest offense because your mind tortures you relentlessly. Does this sound like you? If so please know that you are loved. You are desired. Your hairs are counted and numbered. Don't despair.
I would have you as my brother/sister. You stand against an evil that you perceive, and are unwavered by it's encroachments. The threats fall dead to the ground as you realize you are strong. You have faced the worst and still stand. The scars remind you daily. How they would like to know the warrior that resides inside. But that is not for them. It is only for the select few who can stand to weather the storm. The Lord knows I do not understand why the Lord desires a sword. But I do not ask questions. If my life was set apart for suffering, then so be it. Hopefully it will make me into the sword he desires. Nothing being refined ever enjoys it. Don't let fear take your life. Don't let evil steal your hope. Just because you have been victimized does not mean you are less than. You can make the sweetest lemonade.
I found peace at the foot of His cross. If only I had stayed there.
Thank you for Erik Satie. I am so sorry if I ever hurt anyone. Please know it hurts me every day. I strangely am even thankful for you, my abuser. I might have died without ever really knowing true love. I found that with G-d. Maybe that might help someone. I hope this is relevant and doesn't get modded out of existence. Thank you.
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[–] Silverlining ago
It sounds like you are a victim treading carefully rather than a repenting sinner.
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