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[–] StcharlesSeminary 1 points 10 points (+11|-1) ago 

Thank you Carmencita for your diligence in getting this back on

I was ritually abused in these tunnels as a child from 1961 until about 1970 It started when I was 9 years old, the age I started to menstruate, which is young. I was told by someone a long time ago, that I was probably very valuable as I was born into a generational cult, and I already knew how to keep my mouth shut. Also, for a catholic seminary to abuse a little Lutheran girl, I was probably quite the prize. I was their 'breeder" for years

I called them the "under under" as a child, as the tunnels I was abused in looked the the ones in the photos with dirt floors, not photos of St. Charles but very similar. "Under Under... meant that they were underneath the tunnels used by the students.

My abortions were performed here and my son was killed in these tunnels. I gave birth to a live son when I was 12. I had to murder my own son. He never had a birth certificate, as those involved would have prevented it and he never died on paper. . I know of at least three other women this has happened to, they gave birth and had to murder their child. I named my son "Matthew"

Someone a long time ago, asked if I were "for real" Why would I be telling all these things about myself, for ?? What purpose. To expose my vagina to the world? I have been called crazy and worse all these years, but my story has not changed in 30 years

I don't come to this site often, as for some reason I try to sign in on my cell phone, it won't let me

I have had district attorneys' to my home and more recently two agents from the attorney generals office. I have photos of their ID.

I have an email from the current DA in Philadelphia asking for any and all information, I will not share that as it is confidential.

Why the heck would I make this stuff up.

My main perpetrator has been reported by others, for child abuse as well as adult women rapes with violence. The bishop did nothing!!

There is nothing in this for me, I want to protect others. If the law changes for SOL in PA, I am probably aged out, but I don't want to see another life destroyed by this.. if you read my posts in "Philadelphia' I speak of these tunnels, I did not realize there were photos online

I found these the other evening, and it made me quite ill. I am not well, I have lupus and I spent the last two plus days in bed.

I was married in this hell whole to the 'priest'. I wore a white, felt like satin next to my bare skin, it was a pretty dress and it felt pretty to a little girl. I was allowed to bring my cat, Patches .. my sister named the male cat as he looked like he had patches sewn on him They skinned my cat alive. This was my first time taken there.

I saw children burned to death in incinerators. I was tied up and forced to watch this and 'if I told, this was going to happen to me.' These were street kids, at the time, today we would call them homeless or runaways or sex slaves. No one cared where they went or what happened to them.

As a child, I felt like I was taken in the middle of the night, it could have been 11 pm, for all I know. I also thought as a child it was a limo, it was a fancy black car. I sat in the back, mostly alone, at time with my girl friend, at that time. This girl friend grew up and threatened my life back in the 1980's. More later. I have corroboration but not enough to risk my life. She lives only a few miles from me, and I fear she is still cult active. This is why my life was threatened back in the late 80's as I was out of this hellish cult.

It was my 'girl friend's father' and my mother that enabled my being there. He was roman catholic, and my parents were good Lutherans, and I believe my own mother pimped me out. When she died, she left 1/2 million dollars to my dead sister's husband. Another long story.

I know I was woken from my sleep to go there, and I know I came back before Saturday, I believe it was always a Friday night. I honestly do not remember, yet, how I was woken from my sleep to go, but I can imagine, that memory is around the corner for me too. it is how this works.

There is nothing in this for me, no law suit, no settlement, I want to see it ended, because let's face it, you know it did not stop. I posted this on Facebook the other day, and a friend of mine, Jewish, who is about 20 years younger than myself, told me, he believed he was there as well. I am 65

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[–] GreenDell144 1 points 5 points (+6|-1) ago  (edited ago)

Your are in my prayers. Your children too. I believe in a resurrection. I believe your kids will get another chance. I don’t know how you feel about the Bible. I’m certain that your abusers ignored it. I humbly offer this verse in hope that it comforts you.

John 5:28-29 “Do not be amazed at this, for the hour is coming in which all those in the memorial tombs will hear his voice and come out, those who did good things to a resurrection of life, and those who practiced vile things to a resurrection of judgment.”

In this case, I imagine the innocent count as “good”.

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[–] StcharlesSeminary 1 points 8 points (+9|-1) ago 

Beautiful passage thank you and thank everyone for their thoughts and prayers and concerns. i am just too tired to answer you all, but I appreciate each and everyone of you. God Bless all of us!!

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[–] carmencita [S] 1 points 5 points (+6|-1) ago 

Thank You. You are one of the most Courageous Women I have ever known.

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[–] BehindTheCurtain 1 points 4 points (+5|-1) ago 

I am so very sorry for what you were forced to endure. My prayer is that you, and others like you, will soon celebrate the day that this abominable evil is fully exposed and perpetrators are brought to justice. I pray that God grants you closure and enfolds you in a peace that you never dreamed possible. God bless you and keep you.

I hope you are able to connect with other survivors. I follow a victim of satanic ritual abuse on twitter ( https://twitter.com/SaRaAshcraft )and have noticed she converses with other abuse victims. I would think being united in fighting this evil would have to be somehow empowering. I wish you peace and joy.

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[–] janet58 0 points 2 points (+2|-0) ago 

Love you forever, my friend. We have known each other for ten+ years, online, over the phone and through the mail. We also have mutual friends who have met her in person. This is for real. I am amazed that after all you have been through, you put so much effort into helping other survivors.

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[–] carmencita [S] 1 points 10 points (+11|-1) ago 

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[–] 11931566? 0 points 8 points (+8|-0) ago 

Thanks dear.

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[–] Gilderoy 0 points 6 points (+6|-0) ago 

Thanks for including me on this! My thoughts and prayers for the victims involved. May they achieve peace and justice. Hopefully, for their sake, we're on the cusp of major breakthroughs.

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[–] carmencita [S] 0 points 6 points (+6|-0) ago 

I think we are achieving and making inroads. I really do. Yes, all Abuse Survivors deserve Justice.

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[–] 11931990? 0 points 7 points (+7|-0) ago 

A former student at St. Charles Borromeo sued the seminary:

Former seminarian Christopher McKelvey's lawsuit claims the diocese and its priests

"fostered, tolerated, permitted and encouraged inappropriate sexual conduct"

in which McKelvey faced frequent exposure to

"homosexual and other deviant discussions and or contact."

http://archive.is/PEs9q#selection-105.1-105.328

As many as ten more complainants were expected to be added to the lawsuit, third article: http://archive.is/TGDoz

McKelvey's lawyer referred to seminary instruction at St. Charles as sexualized: http://archive.is/juc4E#selection-1311.1-1319.182

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[–] carmencita [S] 1 points 4 points (+5|-1) ago 

Thank You Again! I have notified her of the post. She will be surprised. I am sure she will be grateful for your findings.

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[–] StcharlesSeminary 1 points 6 points (+7|-1) ago 

Look where Benstad lived during his time with the Papal Foundation http://articles.mcall.com/1992-02-08/features/2842915_1_pastor-papal-foundation-muhlenberg

St. Charles Seminary

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[–] ESOTERICshade 1 points 4 points (+5|-1) ago 

if you read my posts in "Philadelphia' I speak of these tunnels, I did not realize there were photos online https://voat.co/v/pizzagate/2393164/11906219

I would like to read this. I want to add it to my survivor testimony archive. Where can I read it? The world is slowly waking up to this. There is a dedicated tribe of us determined to make it happen for people like you. I have been fighting for you for years, many years. Bless you :)

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[–] carmencita [S] 1 points 2 points (+3|-1) ago 

She is a Courageous Survivor. Yes. I am hoping she will find the Peace and Justice she so well deserves @StcharlesSeminary

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[–] 11931729? 0 points 6 points (+6|-0) ago  (edited ago)

More child sexual abuse cases involving St. Charles Borromeo Seminary/clergy:

FRANCIS X. TRAUGER Ordained: 1972

One man said Gana* abused him numerous times in 1973 when he was about 11 years old and a parishioner at St. Leo Church parish in Northeast Philadelphia. He said the attacks occurred at St. Charles Borromeo Seminary, where the priest would take him to play basketball and swim. Later, he said, they would shower together and the priest would assault him.

*Apparently a typo which should read Trauger


MATTHEW J. KORNACKI Ordained: 1973

Allegations: Kornacki, 57, pleaded guilty last year in federal court in Philadelphia to possession of child pornography.

Federal agents found 150 pornographic images on his personal laptop computer, seized by Secret Service agents during a search at St. Charles Borromeo Seminary.


JOHN J. DELLI CARPINI Ordained: 1976.

Allegations: In an interview with The Inquirer, a Philadelphia man said Delli Carpini abused him, beginning when he was 13 years old and continuing until he was 20. The man, now 41, said he met Delli Carpini when he served as an altar boy at St. Luke the Evangelist parish in Glenside in the late 1970s.

Delli Carpini taught at Philadelphia's Roman Catholic High School in the 1980s and later served as a dean at St. Charles Borromeo Seminary.

http://archive.is/Zzg4N

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[–] carmencita [S] 1 points 2 points (+3|-1) ago 

Oh 100K Thank Yous for Reposting of your Comments :)

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[–] carmencita [S] 1 points 6 points (+7|-1) ago 

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[–] Gothamgirl 0 points 6 points (+6|-0) ago  (edited ago)

Thanks for sharing. My thoughts and prayers go out to her and any other victims.

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[–] carmencita [S] 1 points 4 points (+5|-1) ago 

She will be so very grateful for your thoughts and your prayers, I am sure. Thank You.

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[–] SoldierofLight 0 points 1 points (+1|-0) ago 

Thank you, Carm. My heart is hurting right now in reading this.

@StcharlesSeminary thank you for coming forward and for your strength to recount what was done to you so that you might help others and prevent future victims. You're an inspiration.

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[–] carmencita [S] 1 points 0 points (+1|-1) ago 

She is such a kind and heartwarming person. Yes, that is her main concern always to expose this so there will be no more victims. She is a Blessed Angel, imo.

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[–] StcharlesSeminary 1 points 5 points (+6|-1) ago 

Thomas J uses force with woman, I removed the leader's name from SNAP as that person is no longer with the organization, so no name and or her phone number or email address.

The bishop was told and he did nothing, he needed more than my name.

This beast is still out there, and do you think for a minute he has stopped?

I HAVE A WEDDING RING GIVEN TO ME BY THIS MAN AND THE CULT, IT IS NOT IN MY POSSESSION. IT IS IN A SAFE DEPOSIT BOX ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE COUNTRY. THEY WANT THIS RING, IT IS VERY OLD AND IT IS MARKED 18 KT GOLD, WHICH IS EUROPEAN STANDARD. WHEN I AM ABLE, I WILL POST A PHOTO OF THIS RING

I have been stalked, threatened, watched, photographed and one time, told to get into a car. I have a stack of police reports. They will never leave me alone, and I will never be quiet again.

Thank you for all you do, I am going to hush now. I am tired and it is time to walk away from this. I want to sleep tonight ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Survivors’ Network of those Abused by Priests

Friday, July 1, 2005

Most Reverend Edward P. Cullen D.D. Bishop of Allentown

4029 W. Tilghman Street

P.O. Box F

Allentown, PA 18105

Dear Bishop Cullen,

The purpose of this letter is to inform you that it has come our attention that a Monsignor of your diocese who is currently serving as a pastor at Notre Dame in Bethlehem has a history of abuse.

We have recently received telephone calls from two survivors of a Monsignor Thomas Benestad. Neither survivor knew one another, hence lending credibility to their stories, which were very similar. The second survivor knows of a third survivor of Monsignor Benestad. They were all raped as adults – these are not cases of childhood clergy sexual abuse but rather cases involving a violent rapist predator priest.

While I am not at liberty to divulge details of their abuse, their names, or any other personal information without their consent (as you can imagine they are terrified of this man and fear retribution from him if they come forward), I would very much like to talk with you about what the diocese plans to do to address this situation.

SNAP would like to know if the diocese was aware/is aware that this man has had allegations of abuse in the past (it is my understanding that allegations were made to the Philadelphia Archdiocese while he served there), and if so why weren’t law enforcement and parishioners informed of this activity?

From what we know of Monsignor Benestad he has violent tendencies and is not above using threats while forcibly raping his victims. He is a loose cannon and by informing you we are aiming to prevent future abuses from happening.

We hope that the Diocese will choose to do the “right” thing in protecting future victims from rape from this priest. It would be a tragedy should another innocent soul be lost needlessly to the violence perpetrated by this individual.

Please contact me as soon as possible to discuss this situation.

Sincerely,

Co-Director SNAP Lehigh Valley

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[–] carmencita [S] 1 points 1 points (+2|-1) ago 

Thank you for posting that letter. I know you wanted to protect the others. You are such a good person. Bless You.

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[–] 11931762? 0 points 5 points (+5|-0) ago  (edited ago)

@carmencita great post.

Here is a link to the Fr. William G. Ayres court document quoted in the OP: http://archive.is/VySiK#selection-3029.0-3059.6

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[–] carmencita [S] 1 points 3 points (+4|-1) ago 

What a Horrible Pervert. Man of Satan.

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[–] TrishaUK 1 points 0 points (+1|-1) ago 

100% agree carmencita. The big problem for these children is that the parents don't support them a lot of the time, they think that the Pope is god and 'ignore' their children in many cases. My aunty, a catholic, had 7 sons and 1 daughter. Her sons told her how the priest was abusing them and she 'boxed their ears' for lying and discrediting a 'man of god' and told them to never speak lies about the priest! She also turned a blind eye to her sons abusing her daughter, my mom fell out with her, they were previously good friends, when she told her about the abuse of the daughter and she would not do anything to stop it. I met my cousin years later and she is now a strong woman, but told me of some horrific things that went on, which I was totally unaware of. I felt awful because she never said at the time. We were around 11,12, she had perfected the art of being bubbly and keeping her mouth shut because of the threats and consequences of telling. When she was an adult she went to see a psychologist who really helped her through and finally she is enjoying her life and her 4 children, WHO SHE GUARDS WITH HER LIFE! I only had contact with her that once a few years back since we were children, and she was gushing telling me all about the abuse. She doesn't live near me so we don't see or hear from each other as we were not close since we were children and our parents parted ways. All to real now all this abuse is coming to the forefront.

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[–] carmencita [S] 1 points 2 points (+3|-1) ago 

Thanks for that link I added it to the body of the post. It will surely help keep it from being deleted this time!

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