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[–] FatJavalina 0 points 8 points (+8|-0) ago 

Thank you so much for writing all of that <3 that means a lot. And, yes, the paranoia and shame is terrible! I've always been terrified of someone knowing exactly what was up or, worse, commenting on it.

It makes sense people would only really know of they've experienced it personally...but man, I never stop worrying, haha.

I couldn't imagine working in a grocery store...I worked at an ice cream shop and holy shit. Employees got free ice cream, so after every shift, I just fell apart. I was so extremely all or nothing then. Working at a grocer...you've got to be really strong! I'm thrilled you didn't lose more than 10 lbs (healthy is one thing, but with symptoms, as you know, it's a whole other animal). I know what you mean by trigger, I was taught to call it that, too :) you're using it in a different context and not treating it like a vet's PTSD.
I'm sure I and a few others could co-write that post with you! Haha it's terrible, really. Fucking fats.

But you, too, chica. Stay strong, stay beautiful <3 thank you.

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[–] ittybittybitchy [S] 0 points 2 points (+2|-0) ago 

Oh gosh, I get what you mean with the ice cream shop. I was solidly in recovery, and then I started working in a bakery. I had to quit after three months because I'd completely spiraled into literally the worst binge/purge cycle I've ever been in (which then lasted for another nine months) and it was only about a year after I'd quit that I was back to where I'd been BEFORE I started at the bakery. Oh fuck, it was awful. I'm so glad you're out of that kind of place, I'd never wish that on anyone with ED tendencies.

Now I actually want to lay out all my feelings about fat people and the way they've affected and reacted to my EDs. They're a special kind of awful about it sometimes.

<3 You're a babe.

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[–] FatJavalina ago 

I'm so happy you're out of the bakery, too. And doing worlds better! I'll keep my eye out for that post if you decide to write it (and haven't already). Fats are the worst when it comes to EDs...pretty much always.

Thank you :) you're an absolute sweetheart 😄