Maybe a year or two ago, I posted some screenshot and I think it was Donuts responded to me in passing that night mode is superior. I dismissed it at the time because I was foolish and arrogant. A while later, I tried dark mode briefly to see what all the fuss was about and I found it difficult. I quickly switched back to light mode and concluded that all the dark mode people simply wanted something to help them feel speshul and superior. More recently, however, I tried dark mode again and this time I stuck with it long enough to acclimatise. After a while, I found it to be fine, but not significantly better or worse than light mode. I revised my conclusion to say that dark mode people simply have different preferences.
Then, though ... I had to switch back to light mode for a couple of days recently and ... my god .... my eyes ... they burn. It was like staring into the sun. How have I been browsing the internet for so many years like this? How have I not been blinded by millions of web pages with searing white backgrounds? This is an open apology to all night mode people who I have ignored and insulted. Dark mode is superior.
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[–] AngryAlmond 0 points 4 points 4 points (+4|-0) ago (edited ago)
I mean, I can understand being stuck bringing in her kids if there is an unexpected last minute school cancelation, but it had been known for the whole week that there wasn't going to be any school. Her job pays well enough that she could find daycare or a babysitter.
For the most part she's been a good therapist, supportive of my fitness (which a lot of therapists aren't for eating disorder patients), but the stuff with her kids ticks me off. It doesn't exactly instill confidence in one's therapist when her children are murdering each other a couple doors over. I've been her patient long enough that I know she's competent at her job, but any first time patient would've been scared off, and I wouldn't blame them one bit.
Also, most of the mental health professionals in my area are fats. She's one of the few skinny fit ones I've seen. I remember at one point being sent for a consult with a morbidly obese pyschiatrist. He had the beside manner of a cactus, and claimed that lorazepam wasn't addictive and I could take it daily without issue (it is a VERY addictive drug). Later there was a young femayo social worker with a brain smaller than her life expectancy who didn't understand a word I was saying (and also happened to be very deferential to the aforementioned obese pyschiatrist.
This kind of turned into a rant. Basically, the mental healthcare system is a joke.
[–] mmmmdonuts ago
Hey rant away, It does sound like your current therapist is the best choice after hearing about the other ones.
Since when is fitness bad for anyone? I get if there is an ED involved but exercise is good for the mind. Of course I am a body builder and it's my passion, and I do realize that you can overdo it if it's exhausting you mentally and physically, but in most cases getting out and pumping some iron or running a mile can do the mind good. You just gotta keep up with the calorie intake, which is really hard for someone with an ED :(
Lorazepam is addictive, wtf. I have a prescription for it, I only take it 3x a week though as anymore I will build a tolerance for it and I'll need more, and I want it all the time. I only take it right before dialysis though otherwise I can't sleep at the hospital.
Also I have a social worker as well who's dumb as a bag of rocks. Anything I ask her she has to Google. FFS. What's up with that.
Thanks for listening to my rant, hope I didn't offend you in anyway. I am extremely self conscious in my looks with how I was raised, but have never been anorexic. I don't know how it feels to be in your shoes so I apologies if I said anything wrong.
Also if you have Instagram I can PM you my name and we can support eachother on there if you feel comfortable enough :)