So when I was 14 I dieted pretty hard (eating 500 calories a day, intense cardio.) This ultimately caused me to develop somewhat disordered eating as well as Binge Eating Disorder. It’s pretty manageable and doesn’t make me fat (proof as it may not be believable and I can't seem to get verified) Anyways, after not eating enough for the amount of exercise I’ve been doing lately I ending up binging today. I ate 5 bites of coconut ice cream, 7 gardein chik’n nuggets, 1/2 a grilled cheese, and 2/3 of a cream filled pastry and a generous piece of banana bread. I FEEL LIKE TOTAL SHIT.
How do fats eat this much, if not more, 3x A DAY, EVERY SINGLE DAY?! I literally hate myself so much right now and can’t even fathom how someone would be okay with that to the point that it was completely normal! Times like these are like the least enjoyable part of my life yet people treat themselves like this all the fucking time. It is completely beyond me how or why. It’s fucking disgusting. They’re fucking disgusting.
I at least got to put that extra energy to good use having gone to the gym earlier and later going for a run with my dog and doing some extra “active things” after my binge. It made me feel a lot better and made me much angrier knowing fats don’t do that. They eat and then watch TV or sleep. Fucking wastes of space.
End of rant. Rough day.