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[–] blumen4alles [S] ago 

Barely slept at all last night. Insomnia really sucks. Most of the time I was just trying to rest my body, my mind was going nuts though. I didn't drink my kratom tea yesterday because I don't feel like it is helping my pain much. This is a side-effect I knew was going to happen. Argh I hope I can get some sleep tonight. No kratom again today either. It used to give me a good 4-6 hours of pain relief and energy. I don't know if it is just the quality I have now or my body chemistry has changed. I am just sick of doing the same thing every day. Maybe I will get to where all I drink is water or fruit juice for a few days. Fasting is a trip all its own.

Glad your dog did well! If you can get to where she is distracted and still comes when called that is ideal. Treats definitely help with that. If you have a yummy dry dog food you could probably use that for treats as well.

I might write more later. My mind is goofy right now though, and I don't want to go down any rabbit holes thinking about unbalanced sexual energy & kids getting abused.

Thought about you last night in between considering pacing around outside trying to tire myself out.

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[–] friendsend ago  (edited ago)

Holy yads, I just spent an 45 minutes typing a response only to click a button and make it all disappear. facepalm Staring over.

Go to Etsy, and look up a tea called “In A Dream Awake”. It has plants in it that are psychoactive and that could help with insomnia. It would take a week to get to you, if you could wait that long. Instead of making it into a tea, you can smoke it. It might be good just to have on hand. The blue lotus in it is a very mild pain reliever. Another good plant is wild opium lettuce. It’s almost on par with kratom for pain. You can find resin from the plant on Etsy as well. Otherwise you make a tea out of the leaves. And don’t psych yourself out when you’re fighting to get to sleep. Embrace the suck of insomnia and just hold onto hope that you’ll be ok during the day. You’ll probably get through the worst of it and around 6-9 AM get your second wind and not feel a thing. I bet you’ll sleep extra well tonight. But, dont be worried about it! Allow your mind to rest. Meditate or put some headphones on with some white noise. Or listen to a heart beating noise. There is a technique where you can use pressure on your vagus nerve. Squeeze your qlutes together and push down, as if going to the bathroom, but keep holding for 8-10 seconds (and don’t go to the bathroom! ;)) and then release, then pay attention to your peripheral vision. That should calm your mind down a lot and get you out of some anxiety about your insomnia.

We don’t have to talk about anything you don’t want to talk about. If you have something else on your mind, then type about that. I’m around voat all the time. I really need to find new news sources, but the humor here is something I’m addicted to. I wonder what the guys here would be like irl. If there was a meet up, I would go, but I’d be the single mom everyone would love to hate.... but I’m sure I’d be accepted eventually because my power of will towards the cause. Hahah.

Rest easy! Peace fren.

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[–] blumen4alles [S] ago 

Holy yads, I just spent an 45 minutes typing a response only to click a button and make it all disappear. facepalm Staring over.

Oh that stinks. Happened a few times to me myself. Whenever I type something long out now I usually remember to select all the text and copy it to my clipboard, that way if something screwy happens I can paste it and continue. This site does that stuff often. Also if you open any links from searchvoat, all your other tabs will have to be reloaded/refreshed before you can send a comment or vote. Gets a little tricky.

I will look into the tea and I already have some blue lotus and wild opium lettuce. I also have dried opium poppy heads and seeds, so I could make a tea with those. Really the pain in my arms has not been too bad, back aches but it usually feels like there is a black hole on my spine anyway. Have you heard the term "loosh" before? Look it up and have a read :)

This site has been coming up a lot for me in my recent searches. https://ascensionglossary.com/index.php/Loosh

I was looking what they said about Amenti, and there is also Amenta. I wish this site was around 10 or more years ago!

Last night I was able to get some sleep before waking up around 2-3am, then I was able to get some real good sleep after about 5am. I haven't been able to eat as much as I usually do, which is a good thing since I need to lose some weight. Going to start halving my portions because I hate wasting food, dogs love it though.

Every night I sleep with an eye mask (a Mindfold, designed by Alex Grey) and bluetooth headphones. Back when I was a kid I would love to listen to the rain and especially thunderstorms. I even tried to record them with my cassette boombox. Then I found a nature CD, eventually ripped that to mp3 and I have been listening to that as white noise for decades now. I can sleep if I don't have it but I prefer to have white noise. I used to just play it on the speakers in my room, because I didn't like the cords on headphones. Those wireless headphones are awesome though.

I think I should be good tonight, I am getting closer to baseline.

Thanks for the vagus nerve tip, I will see if I can do that today.

Gonna go dive in now and see what Moon-day has in store for me. Hope you have a good week!

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[–] friendsend ago 

Oh, pfft. Meant to tell you. Eat tryptophan. Turkey is the best. Right before bed. It gives your brain serotonin. Also, look at the sunset. Don’t look at screens after it gets dark. Maybe take a melatonin supplement? Just don’t psych yourself out. Calm. Hope you sleep well. It’s 7 wherever you are so you have some time to put yourself in an easy state of mind. Feel gratitude and have no worry.

Hope that helps. Be well.