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Archived I went to sleep for the daytime, I shut my eyes to the sunshine (youtube.com)
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[–] friendsend ago (edited ago)
Tell me about your friend in Germany. Who is targeting him? How?
Good job having a meltdown. Men have issues with moving emotions properly if they’re not aligned in a whole body way. Women can usually bleed it out. Hallelujah the weather helped you navigate through.
I communicated with the weather in the last storm our area had. It was beautiful. I felt someone was controlling it, and we were speaking through it. I felt the person was my twin flame. Not sure if we’ll meet in this life or the next, though.
As far as that Russian website link, about degenerates... that was rough to read. I’ve been mulling over it the last couple of days. I just think a lot of people are dealing with degeneracy because of media, and many people are dealing with mental illness because their not taught true mental health. They’re not taught how to be a real human, they’re part of the machine and they lose it, can’t cope, need help ‘functioning’ how we’re supposed to function in this system. And as for deformities... there are a lot of environmental factors at play... our DNA can’t be expressed fully and gets damaged, creating problems. We aren’t living at capacity. I think that if the man who wrote that, wrote it in a time of HEALTH and FREEDOM, then it would be more applicable. If you’re living in an amazing culture, with advanced medicine, and a connection to nature... and degeneracy showed up, then mental illness, then deformities.... then yes, that would be an indication that those people needed to be culled. But in the here and now, I don’t think that man can be taken with any seriousness, because he just described most people in the West. It’s a mess regardless.
And so, slave class. Yes, I am in one. But I know I have sovereignty in a very spiritual way. I am the captain of my ship. I remember as a teenager, I skipped school to go smoke pot with my rebel friends, and a limo passed by us. I looked at the limo and got the thought that if I wanted to be intelligent, then I would have to lose my mind. I thought it over for a brief moment, and said yes, I would do it. There are so many memories I have in my youth, where I made a decision, only to have that decision come true later in my adult years. In college, when I was high on feminism with my beta boyfriend, I made the decision I would have no husband, but I would have one daughter, and we’d find our way. It made sense at the time - every man in my life failed me - and I was no way a woman that could raise a boy. So, I decided on a girl. One memory that sticks out was when I was in 5th grade, reading the Anne Frank book - and wishing that I was a an outcasted intellectual in a culture war. I am not that, but I know so many things I chose came true, and I am not sure what I can stop or change at this point. I’m careful of what I wish for, and have been for about 5 years, after I realized I created my life. My daughter is not allowed to make wishes unless it’s on a star or blowing out a birthday candle. We talked about being careful when talking to the universe about what she thinks she wants, because it may and probably will happen. So yes, I’m in a slave class, living off government dibs, but I truly think that I’ll be able to break free of this and all my karma. But, the people I talk to in my head, the people that I hear, the people I see in my visions... I feel there is an upper class of humans who have ultra-reality/paranormal/super human abilities. And I’m not sure where they live, but they might be the ones who can leave the planet and go into space and back at their leisure. And most Americans, most people on the planet, WORKING - are wage slaves, and the work done on the surface of the planet funds the entire solar system. The planet can provide enough for all of us - in every way. Being stuck in jobs is bullshit - when this planet is wealthy beyond all that is conceivable by most people. I think there is a class that has that opulence - and I think they communicate with me. They’re not degenerates. They’re just awake and live in prosperity and health that I’ve never seen anywhere. I truly believe that.
I see the eye of providence/all seeing eye quite often in my visions. Do you have a negative or positive take on that symbol? I get so confused by it - wanted your take.
Blessings!
[–] blumen4alles [S] ago (edited ago)
Oh wow it has been over a week.
I don't want to talk much about my friend in Germany, but I think it is his family that are causing the problems. He lives with his mother, grandmother, and sister. His father does not live with them. Sounds to me like they are all toxic and/or narcissists. Some of the stories I have heard are horrible, I can't imagine my grandmother trying to make me sad like that. Recently they got the police involved, they came and took a bunch of his stuff, wrecked shit. They are like crabs in a bucket. There is a greater evil that is acting through them, at least that is how I see it. This evil targets the light.
I watched this movie called Chicken 2015 and it did a good job disturbing me. This world is so fucked up, I wanna go home.
Had a wet dream this morning, pretty much right on schedule, as the new moon is tomorrow night. It was accompanied with a pretty crazy dream. I didn't try to fight it at all this time. Weird how my thought process goes in my dream. I don't know if the dream is a reaction to my body, my body is reacting to the dream, or both. In my dream I was some sort of security guy, like a mall cop, wearing a yellow vest, had this pellet gun. Then this Antifa looking chick with a black crop top starts making trouble, she shoots at me, I shoot back then disarm her, then lay on top of her to subdue her. I greatly over-powered her and was kinda amused that she was powerless.
At least it was better than yesterday's dream, where my computer had some sort of malware. I should be writing these dreams down to review later. I used to have a voice recorder I would keep by my bed and talk the dream out when I woke up. It is easier than writing because you don't need light and it keeps your mind closer to the dream state. Then I loaned my voice recorder to my fourth girlfriend so she could listen to this audiobook I put on there for her, never got it back.
I think you might be taking that the wrong way or taking it personally. For me what that article was about was incest, and what happens when a group interbreeds. Unless your parents are related, it doesn't really apply to you. I did mention this stuff to my mom, and she told me about family on her fathers side that were cousins and had children. I can't recall how close of cousins now though, just that they both had the same last name. Uh oh. :)
Part of my mystical experience was about the incestual nature of reality. It is hard for me to put into words, I'd have to write a bunch out and sift through it. I think that is the sick joke behind trannies and such. They get a thrill successfully deceiving others to be attracted to the same sex or getting sexual with them. Trannies stick out like a sore thumb to me so I am not sure how anyone falls for that deception.
I think I would be in the warrior-slave class. My masters ran into problems with me though, they do no know how to motivate me. I have my own reasons for fighting, and they are never in alignment with my masters reasons. If I was forced into fighting they would probably regret it. I remember wanting to by kidnapped so I could fuck up my kidnappers.
Recently I relocated our fire pit, the old shape was a circle, and the new shape reminds me of an eye. I am going to leave it that way. That symbol is quite powerful and is used for both good and evil. So I would say it is a neutral symbol and it depends on the context. The image you linked is connected to Hermeticism, which I consider to be a good thing. There is a perverted form of Hermeticism that the freemasons use, and in that context I would consider that a bad thing. As another example, this Greek restaurant I used to go to often had one of these blue evil eyes hanging behind the counter. Quite an ancient symbol.
A symbol I would not use would be the hamsa. There is something about that symbol that rubs me the wrong way. Did you see them when you were in Egypt? How does it make you feel?
[–] friendsend ago
I wasn’t able to sleep tonight... I’m a bit worried that this low dose of zyprexa is causing it! The last time I didn’t take my meds it was like this. Ugh.
So - I lived with a narcissistic mother. And I have a child. I am HIGHLY aware of people who think they can treat their kids like crap. Sometimes even in an evil way. Some parents want to take out their problems on their children. Others just LIKE being abusive. Some see potential in their children and don’t want them to be successful out of jealousy. When I was growing up, I was so used to my mother being mean that I did it to my siblings as well. I wasn’t self aware and I was highly suggestible. I took after my mother like a child should take after their parents. My goodness, when my daughter grew out of babyhood and into her own personality it was so so so so so hard to not treat her like my mother treated me. I went to therapy, read parenting books, cried when I lost my shit, and prayed constantly. I’m a really great mother now. I really got it down by the time she was 5, but now she’s my new 7 year old, and I am doing so well with building her properly. I know I had a choice - be terrible and break her like my parents did me - or build her. I chose life. It sounds like your friend is with -beyond- toxic relatives. Bless him. I would even have him attempt leaving even if it meant living in poverty. Being poor, I’d rather be like this than in a relationship with someone horrendous. But, like so many, he may have never seen other options. When people are used to a living situation, they tend to think nothing can change. He may not have it in him at this moment. Pray tell he finds his way and rises above all of this.
The hamsa - no I avoid it. I was in the Middle East and it was big there. I’m over it. Not my culture. Not my Gods. I could do well without eating foreign cuisine and celebrating other cultures for the rest of my life. They can keep their damned eye of fatima.
Your wet dream is pretty non-PC, and at the same time completely mirroring modern porn. Cop. Bad girl. Shit gets rough and she gets fucked.
I had a transmission/idea when I was seriously mentally ill that women steered the direction of the planet as it flew through space with their psychic and spiritual energy, but men had to sex them up right to get the women to go in the right direction. Pretty funny thought. I should make a romance novel about it. Ha!
And yes... I did take that Russian stuff personally. It was rough. Something about being a cocked eyed schizophrenic that no one would want really hurt. My daughter has amblyopia and has schizophrenic parents! We’re both white, he’s of German stock and I’m of Scandinavian (I was blond as a girl, now a brunette - damn it.). But even before I read that, I was just pondering if amblyopia was a condition of being inbred. Pisses me off. I’d be interested in reading what you’d piece together if you wrote about the incestual nature of reality. I wont hold my breath but if you do ever write something cohesive then share.
Speaking of masters, do you think you’ve been a victim of mind control? This guy (<-Jewtube) talks about his experiences with CIA mind control techniques with a super computer. This video has a decent description. I can’t subscribe too heavily into it or I’ll get hella paranoid. But, I feel I come in and out of spirit and machine. You might have some respite from the system that allows you to decompress and live with spirit - I live in the grid. I think everything is really what you make it. If I get really scared, then I will create bad situations. If I’m peaceful and a free, then spirit moves through me. My daughter’s father always worries about satellites hurting our daughters brain. He gets me a bit panicky sometimes. Ever used orgone? Heard of biogeometry? I have a necklace I bought from the doctor who created biogeometry while I was in Egypt 14 years ago. I think stuff like that helps, although I just have a few pieces of orgone... the energy that comes off of it makes my body cool when I focus on it.
I hope you’re doing well. It’s nice to hear from you.
It’s 6 am my time, and I am going to attempt to stay up for the rest of the day as a RESET. Hopefully I won’t start hallucinating. Ha. If I do I’ll tell you about it, it would probably be enjoyable.
Coffee. Maybe even some green tea or matcha. Yoga, too.
Peace, fren.