As previously mentioned, a lot has happened during the visit; some good, some bad and much very personal. There have been conversations that transpired that I, as a teen, wouldn't've wanted shared on the internet. Therefore, I'm not going to get into the events and feel it's best to just leave them where they are- in the past. Instead, I'd like to share my mistakes, failures, and what I've learned from this experience.
After the green smoothie incident and having been completely fed up with trying to use a carrot/stick approach, I reached a breaking point. Knocked on her door and asked if I could sit down to with her. She agreed and I let her know that I loved her very much. That the way I show love is by teaching and guiding but that if she doesn't want what it is I have to offer, then she's not forced to stay. Told her that if she chooses to go home that I won't hold it against her, that I know it's hard having your entire world rocked. She seemed relieved. She spoke to her mom and asked if she could try again next summer. Her parents are making her pay for her early flight home.
I acknowledged and apologized for coming on way too strong initially. See, I have this little problem of being way too intense at times and have a reputation for being disciplined. Unfortunately, this part of my personality can leak into my other relationships. Bottom line- people don't like being told what to do or how to think. I should have taken a more gentle approach initially. That being said, taking her phone was very helpful and something I don't regret doing…I just regret the way I did it.
All is not lost. After the blow out fight and tears, I chilled out quite a bit and was just my normal self…the way I behave around my closest friends and family. After dropping the 'Strict Aunt' act, she came around…pretty much immediately. That's when we had normal, productive conversations without heat where I was able to slip in bite-sized red pills. We had many of these little red-pilled conversations over the week she was here. Perhaps I will post about them but I'll do so in a generic form.
My niece boarded the plane home early and decided to continue her sugar detox and fitness routine that she was immersed in while staying with us. Took her shopping for some healthy snacks for the plane ride home. Also took her shopping for a modest yet trendy outfit for school. We left on a pretty good note but everyone was drained.
If you take anything from my experience, please let it be that red-pilling too much and too fast is a terrible approach. Those holding red-pilled opinions have often taken years to get there and gradually found comfort with those ideas. For a newbie, being exposed too fast with too much is just jolting- and not in a good way.
Bottom line: I failed by not bonding with her before challenging her ideas. She tested me and I took the bait. There are many things I've learned about myself during this ordeal and one thing is certain, I have plenty of room for growth and have a lot of thinking to do.
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[–] Tommy952019 ago
I guess will be absolutely useless, but... Can anyone share with me some about WHAT DOES IT MEAN all this...Are some of you able to communicate in a productive way?
It's not a fake, trust me, we want to build a life together.
Something more important than this?
- NO -
take your sexual-cabal-disease off the table for a moment, be normal, for just a moment.
stop war, cheat, hiding, For a moment. if I don't ask too much.
I need to connect with my friend positively, if anybody give advices, i will keep my contrast again the black mage, (with good chances of victory),
only.
But not only this exist, also the seeds of a good life raising. Anybody like that smell? anybody focusing on build a equilibrated life? no traditional but creatively effective?
How you justify this inability to yourself guys?
WHY YOU CAN'T ?
What you miss people? What goes wrong?
I will never be exposed to the negative influence... so... stop fighting, we can't dominate on each other.
We are in EQUILIBRIUM.
Do you think that after 30 years of fragile illusions, Our common friend deserve to manifest the life she still want or not?
Your sacrifice, your torture against yourself can stop? for a moment, for a task, for justice and honor.
How can be that you are not sensible about JUSTICE and HONOR, while moving in a so rigid rules enviroment?
You think i'm threathing you. I'm thinking that this black legacy don't need help to fall...
All your advanced tools, Can't challenge and can't win, even in one of your most valuable soldier, or slave.
I send you all my best wishes, really, your freedom is near.
Let me get closer to my twinflame. I'm ready to swallow the redpill, and connect with you.
Some of you lie everytime, me, never.
It's true that we are connected with really hight vibrational entities, why you run to take shelter?
We are not here to destroy, I will start with Lupe, and you all will feel good guys... true.
Help me. I can resist this pain, but we waste time and energy.
I'm asking for a real chance, a real connection, a real start. My weird behaiviour it'a a tactical tool. I can proove you.
What is happening now, she is punished or abandoned or she is hiding or she is in the green, or what?
I'm her family, help, be strong, now it's necessary, we are not just Tommy and Lupi, we are the torch of a fire that all of us my dear opponents we deserve.
Turn fear in friendship, I will not delude you.