I have suffered from depression and anxiety for most of my life, with recurrent suicidal tendencies. 2-3 years ago had some major life stressors, and basically I suffered a major nervous breakdown, which basically destroyed my career.
Have had extreme difficulty finding support from anyone. I am struggling with extreme loneliness, which compounds the whole issue.
Around the same time, I found the Q movement, which gave me something to hold onto.
But, I am burned out, and am having a lot of difficulty from life. My depression and anxiety are continued, with little improvement. I tried SSRIs (last resort), but all it did was lead to increased weight gain, which made me more depressed. I also began drinking heavily, which was the only thing that made me feel good.
I have never really had anyone to talk to about these things. I feel that things are going downhill for me. Time keeps moving on, little is improving, I am getting older, losing my hair, and becoming more and more isolated.
So I am taking a break from all of this. Not sure when I will return. Thanks, please pray for me and wish me luck, I need it a lot
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Always remember, life is short, you only get one chance, make the best of it. Live every day like its your last. Worrying about things does nothing, it changes nothing. Think about it, pick something things you constantly worry about, has worrying about it ever changed the outcome? Nope, it did not. Another thing, no ones opinion of you matters, the only opinion that matters is your own. If you know you are doing the best with what you got, that's all that matters.
Find yourself a hobby, find something that gives you pleasure. Volunteer at the local food center, deliver meals to elderly, do things for people more needy than you. Handing a few bucks to a homeless person can give you pride, it doesn't take much.
Don't lock yourself away in your bedroom, its easy to get trapped in to that lifestyle. The longer you isolate yourself, the harder it gets to reintroduce yourself to society.
The best thing for depression is exercise. Sweating releases toxins. Aerobic activity boosts your metabolism. Loosing a few pounds builds self esteem. Once you get in to a routine and see results in a mirror, your brain starts to crave it.
Depression can be caused by a magnesium deficiency. Pumpkin seeds, cashews, almonds are high in magnesium, good diet food also. Magnesium is not well absorbed through the GI tract, its better absorbed through your skin, take Epsom salt baths couple times per week.
Keep your mind occupied, vegging out or sleeping a lot promotes depression. Buy yourself some good books, the kind you don't want to put down or can't wait to get back to. You said the Q movement gave you something to hold on to, there are a million other possibilities out there that could capture your interest.
Fighting depression is not easy, it takes determination. Pulling yourself off the couch is hard but its the best thing you can do. Fight through the pain, over time it will get easier.
Like someone else suggested, praying is not a bad idea either, God does answer prayers, he has answered mine on several occasions.
I wish you the best of luck and I hope I was able to give you some advice that helps. God Bless You.