I have suffered from depression and anxiety for most of my life, with recurrent suicidal tendencies. 2-3 years ago had some major life stressors, and basically I suffered a major nervous breakdown, which basically destroyed my career.
Have had extreme difficulty finding support from anyone. I am struggling with extreme loneliness, which compounds the whole issue.
Around the same time, I found the Q movement, which gave me something to hold onto.
But, I am burned out, and am having a lot of difficulty from life. My depression and anxiety are continued, with little improvement. I tried SSRIs (last resort), but all it did was lead to increased weight gain, which made me more depressed. I also began drinking heavily, which was the only thing that made me feel good.
I have never really had anyone to talk to about these things. I feel that things are going downhill for me. Time keeps moving on, little is improving, I am getting older, losing my hair, and becoming more and more isolated.
So I am taking a break from all of this. Not sure when I will return. Thanks, please pray for me and wish me luck, I need it a lot
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[–] 20632594? ago
Super proud of you, really impressive you could come out of a hole that deep. Keep thriving dude.
Weed's a crutch but it at least makes you more empathetic and isn't physically addictive, just habit forming.
[–] 20632813? ago
Yeah, I know the habit-forming aspect, I get a little edgy when I run out, but at least you don't get violently ill like with the booze. Can't tell ya how many 8am trips I made to the packy...first customer of the day, and the clerk automatically grabs the pint of Beam because he knows ya. Then pulling out the cash/debit card with shaking hands, sweat running down your forehead...I often took the first slam before I pulled out of the parking space.
It's a real shitty way to live.