I have suffered from depression and anxiety for most of my life, with recurrent suicidal tendencies. 2-3 years ago had some major life stressors, and basically I suffered a major nervous breakdown, which basically destroyed my career.
Have had extreme difficulty finding support from anyone. I am struggling with extreme loneliness, which compounds the whole issue.
Around the same time, I found the Q movement, which gave me something to hold onto.
But, I am burned out, and am having a lot of difficulty from life. My depression and anxiety are continued, with little improvement. I tried SSRIs (last resort), but all it did was lead to increased weight gain, which made me more depressed. I also began drinking heavily, which was the only thing that made me feel good.
I have never really had anyone to talk to about these things. I feel that things are going downhill for me. Time keeps moving on, little is improving, I am getting older, losing my hair, and becoming more and more isolated.
So I am taking a break from all of this. Not sure when I will return. Thanks, please pray for me and wish me luck, I need it a lot
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[–] 20630925? 0 points 2 points 2 points (+2|-0) ago (edited ago)
Praying for you 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻. Know that you are precious in God’s eye. Don’t give in to despair. You may become despondent, but keep HOPE in your mind. God has a plan for you ! I’ve been there... sick , depressed, in pain, feeling alone, unable to work. Cling to God, your Father, Ask Him to show you His love. (It’ll come in the way of a smile, a sunset, a lovely breeze...it’ll be something gentle that tugs at your heart.)
Go for walks, get some sun. Eat healthy...some. treats now and then....NO BOOZE. It is is a depressant and is TERRIBLE for us who suffer from depression. It is a FAKE. It steals from you as it is a temporary fix.
As far as SSRI’s, I’ve tried em all. Temporary fix- with weight gain.
Have you tried St. John’s Wort? It is a natural antidepressant. Helping me a lot, I can tell you brand I like ( no nausea ).
Wish I could speak to you. Trust that you will be in my prayers.