I have suffered from depression and anxiety for most of my life, with recurrent suicidal tendencies. 2-3 years ago had some major life stressors, and basically I suffered a major nervous breakdown, which basically destroyed my career.
Have had extreme difficulty finding support from anyone. I am struggling with extreme loneliness, which compounds the whole issue.
Around the same time, I found the Q movement, which gave me something to hold onto.
But, I am burned out, and am having a lot of difficulty from life. My depression and anxiety are continued, with little improvement. I tried SSRIs (last resort), but all it did was lead to increased weight gain, which made me more depressed. I also began drinking heavily, which was the only thing that made me feel good.
I have never really had anyone to talk to about these things. I feel that things are going downhill for me. Time keeps moving on, little is improving, I am getting older, losing my hair, and becoming more and more isolated.
So I am taking a break from all of this. Not sure when I will return. Thanks, please pray for me and wish me luck, I need it a lot
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[–] 20629518? ago
I had a similar problem six years ago. Down and out was an understatement as I felt that I had a chemical instability. Since using cannabis, all of that went away and I have been able to regulate my weight. Coming from a guy who could be fine one day and barely make it out of bed the next - cannabis gave me my life back, and in fact removed my anxiety to a point where I now function normally in my job role as a trainer at a very busy company. Working where I’m at now would have been nearly impossible. So look into it.