I have suffered from depression and anxiety for most of my life, with recurrent suicidal tendencies. 2-3 years ago had some major life stressors, and basically I suffered a major nervous breakdown, which basically destroyed my career.
Have had extreme difficulty finding support from anyone. I am struggling with extreme loneliness, which compounds the whole issue.
Around the same time, I found the Q movement, which gave me something to hold onto.
But, I am burned out, and am having a lot of difficulty from life. My depression and anxiety are continued, with little improvement. I tried SSRIs (last resort), but all it did was lead to increased weight gain, which made me more depressed. I also began drinking heavily, which was the only thing that made me feel good.
I have never really had anyone to talk to about these things. I feel that things are going downhill for me. Time keeps moving on, little is improving, I am getting older, losing my hair, and becoming more and more isolated.
So I am taking a break from all of this. Not sure when I will return. Thanks, please pray for me and wish me luck, I need it a lot
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[–] 20628760? 0 points 10 points 10 points (+10|-0) ago
I'm very similar to you. I have empathy. I will pray for you. Sometimes I think we've all been duped. Sometimes I think Trump is evil and Q is legit. Sometimes I think Trump and Q are legit. Sometimes I think it's all a bs way to get people to stay complacent while Trump does things that make me frustrated. It's exhausting and confusing.
Remember two things. YOU are in control of YOU. Don't let anyone or anything dictate your life but GOD. Pray for help.
Second, question EVERYTHING. Never settle. Never accept without proof. Never allow yourself to turn a blind eye. This is why I question all motives from everyone. At sometime in our history, we started blindly trusting people, stopped questioning their motives and got taken advantage of.
Also, as a former alcoholic, lay off the sauce. It makes you feel good, it takes away the problems for the time, but the next morning, the problems are still there and you have a hang over to deal with. Drinking is not a solution to your problems, it's just another problem you'll have to deal with.
Keep your head up.