I feel there are lots of things that can be reasonably believed in, but I feel nothing ultimately should be believed in. It's as though even concepts such as enlightenment, satori or oneness and things like the idea that we are just a dreamer that has dreamed before are all just ideas, imaginations, possibilities. I feel that everything that we try and use language to describe is just so far from the truth, just approximationary metaphors for the the reality (and the planes / dimensions I have experienced of it) that I find myself in is so infinitely complicated that anything I say or think or do is ultimately nothing in comparison to the totally of the experience of existing. Even the concept of "I AM" one can find problems with, because nothing can be singled out as being "I", and "AM" is the understatement of the century, because technically I always was and always will be as well. So I can't say the "I" or the "AM" in "I AM". It can be asked who is it that thinks it is? Because it is not me that thinks it, I am merely observing the thought.
I guess I never believe anything completely, and so when it comes to commenting on others' ideas and communicating my own ideas I am always attempting and failing to express my entirely inadequate conception of the truth. This leads me to notice that two things are happening here, I am entirely unable to completely express who I am, or what is that is, and I am also entirely unable to completely express truth. So does this suggest that "truth" and "who I am" or "what is that is" are the same thing. Am I truth?
My guess is that sounds crazy and may be incomprehensible but it's as best as I can put in to words. Thoughts?
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[–] smatt 0 points 1 point 1 point (+1|-0) ago
No one will ever understand Truth. It is not understandable. It is beyond the concept of understanding. What is it to even understand something anyway? What is actual understanding? Words are extremely inefficient in helping us grasp these concept we try to "understand". Don't get too caught up on words and trying to understand Truth. Just be open to it and it will show itself.