I'm back in Van Horn, realizing the realities of construction.
There are stories about the "house on the sand" and the "house on the rocks". They were no joke. I keep thinking about how I can build things and it's really something that requires engineering and not just a haphazard approach.
You have wind, ants, mice, heat, and cold to deal with. You have water and the lack of it. And then your own basic sanity. How happy are you, really, staying out alone?
Even the most basic structure would be several loads with my truck and several days. You really should have a foundation. I don't have a cement mixer. I don't have quite enough water for that, either. You want to have rebar sticking up out of the foundation for your cinder blocks to mate to. And then when it's all said and done, how do you deal with cooling? Do you build two walls and put large doors on the ends so you can get a draft? Do you setup a generator and A/C?
It often feels like you can have youthful energy or pessimistic wisdom -- never both.
I heard about and found a bulk water source yesterday. You know in these small towns, everything closes for any reason. Good Friday comes along and the one coffee shop is closed. The bagel shop is closed. The grocery store closes early.
The town has everything you need but it really isn't "cool", much at all. It isn't weird or strange. The people don't seem like they are on drugs. It's just both laid back and not very ambitious.
I am not sure how long I'll be in the area for. Thinking about camping down in Marfa.
I guess I find of all things difficult, the worst is missing culture and people. I have enjoyed otherwise miserable struggles as long as I had the right people with me. But alone, despite having more resources than ever, I am truly a failed pioneer. So many others before me have done this exceptionally well. I am not skilled hardly at all. Not very objective. It's like I am trying to go back a couple hundred years, with better tools, and am doing what they did much worse.
If you're likeminded and in the States and want to talk about anarchy, economics, and build livable structures, let me know and you can probably join me out here. I may even be able to pick you up.
I don't know how to build buildings, community, or culture. I just know all three are quite important.
Thank you for your time.