I figured I'd post my thoughts on quitting.
I've been addicted to nicotine since early 2014, prior to that I smoked cigars a lot, but could go months between smokes though. I smoked cigarettes for only about a month before transitioning to e-cigs, but I went from a half pack a day to about 10mL of .18% juice a week a day (this was in the 2 ohm days when you didn't get much vapor). Starting in 2016 my workplace banned vaping indoors and I took it as a sign that I needed to quit. Over the next 8 months I transitioned from .10% juice to .015% juice, and the day before the US election I took my last hit, or so I thought.
Quitting is rough, your teeth itch, you joints ache. It ramps up from the minute you take your last hit, becoming really annoying by 24hrs, and outright painful by 48hrs. This is after going to a the lowest percentage juice I could get. The withdrawal lasts a while, a week for it to stop hurting, a month for my teeth to stop itching.
And the worst thing is, 8 months after quitting, in a moment of weakness, I grabbed one of my cigars and smoked it. It was fine though I wasn't addicted again, it was FINE! Only, before I knew it I was walking into the smoke shop's humidor and grabbing $50 worth of my favorite cigars. For the next three months I spent about $300/month on cigars, but IT WAS FINE, I wasn't addicted to cigarettes or e-cigs again! Then I got tired of spending so much money on cigars and bought another E-Cig.
So, for another 8 months I was hooked. Then my brother and I started planning a vacation that would require a flight out west, 5 hours without nicotine. Sure, I could have bought gum or patches, but again, I didn't want to be addicted, so I quit, for two months. Got through the worst of the withdrawal again.
We fly out to Vegas, stay at the Caesars Palace, and they have a Monte Cristo Cigar bar, I smoke a single cigar, it's okay, not a problem, I am not addicted again, surely. And that's it, for 10 days. On the tenth day I say to myself, surely it's been long enough, I can enjoy another without becoming addicted again, surely!
So, that's how I wound up spending a few hundred between June and early August on cigars. Looking at how much I was spending I again faced the decision, quit, or go to something cheap like e-cigs. This time I quit. I haven't fallen off the wagon since them, and am now over the worst of the withdrawal, I can smell a cigarette without needing to ask the owner for one.
One thing I've noticed, is that it doesn't matter how low your dosage is, withdrawal is the same every time, quitting e-cigs was just as bad as going cold turkey. You HAVE to stick out at least a month, no matter how hard it is. See your mental gymnastics for what they are, they're just as insidious as white cucks thinking that being an "ally" will get them pussy. You are your own enemy when it comes to quitting, defeat him!
So, that's my story and my rant about the psychology of addiction, it's not this all encompassing need, it's a series of little failures that keep sucking you back in. This time I understand that it's one of the things holding me back from having a long life in the service of my people, so I must change.