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[–] 16331159? ago 

That sucks, man. I feel you.

I believe it is possible to change. It's just tedious because results take time.

I cut my diet down to rice and beef, because it's a guaranteed clear mind for me, with a variety of other things in moderation. I'll have to try that fasting, too.

I believe it is possible to rehabilitate your mental functions through competitive games. I took up playing DotA when I realized I could tell which part of my mind was engaged when I played. Am I thinking and predicting, or am I feeling and reacting? Am I planning or am I reliving? Do I really understand what happened and should go to the next game, or am I avoiding the memory of failure and should watch the replay? Did I rage? Raging only hinders team performance. What could I have done to resolve the situation? What could I have done to win, from hero selection, to communication, to the end? What are the professional styles of play? What low tier pub styles have I seen or can make up for myself to win games? Should I be watching better players right now or should I be resting and posting on 8ch?

I know games sound like a waste of time, but it was all I could do before. I could play for many hours, slipping this rehab in. Now I can read books by my own choosing without feeling that fucking burning in my mind.