[–] Nicoladepierola 0 points 3 points (+3|-0) ago 

Hallucinations were the worst part. I was completely convinced that shadow demons were coming to get me while I lay on the bathroom floor. That stuff is evil. It's good to hear you beat it.

[–] Blurnaldblurmpf [S] 0 points 2 points (+2|-0) ago 

Some of the hallucinations I had were people's faces literally morphing into demonic caricatures, I can completely relate, I like to call the DTs devil triggers now, it felt like a purgatory or hell with some of the shit I remember.

The whole experience has given me a newfound connection to God, who I believe helped me through. Its cool if others don't wanna believe, but the spirituality of it helped me through and many others.

[–] TripleZ ago  (edited ago)

Now imagine when you die you see similar demonic faces. In Buddhism they tell you to expect it. In some realms of the dying process you are plagued by a constant stream of demonic faces scaring the bejesus out of you. A master will realize these images are nothing more than projections of their own mind and casually sail through them. Good on you for quitting. Consider taking up meditation to help you continue.

[–] CognitiveDissident5 0 points 3 points (+3|-0) ago  (edited ago)

Good, jewce is poison. Jew brew is easily accessible for a reason.

[–] Intrixina 0 points 2 points (+2|-0) ago  (edited ago)

Well done niggerfaggot. I can't say that I've ever been addicted to alcohol, given that I've partaken less times than the fingers of both my hands in a lifetime. I have never understood the appeal of destroying your ability to remember things the next day for "fun" - that sounds the antithesis of "fun" to me.

[–] everlastingphelps 0 points 2 points (+2|-0) ago 

You've got a mental injury. It's as real as a broken leg. You can't just walk it off. You've been medicating the pain without treating the symptoms (and have thankfully stopped that.) You need mental rehab, just like you need physical rehab after a physical injury.

I'm not big on psychotherapy because frankly 90% of psychiatrists glow in the dark. Instead, get connected to Peer Support Services at your VA. It's literally just other combat vets talking shit out and supporting each other. If VA fucks try to steer you towards something other than Peer Support, refuse. If your actual peers say you need it, think about it. If you still have contact with guys from your units, hook up with them as well. You can't cold turkey the mental injury any better than the alcohol.

You're 90% of the way there. Get that last 10% and get shit done.

[–] GhostskinIsAfaggot 2 points -2 points (+0|-2) ago  (edited ago)

So many vets make the mistake of coming home and making the rest of their life military-cenric. A perfect example is the seventy year old guys you see who wear a Vietnam vet ball cap everyday all these years later. I see so many guys where everything revolves around the few years they spent in the service, they can never let it go. That's just a recipe for misery, you have to move on.

[–] DontBeRacist ago 

I never really started drinking, and I never really liked it much. If you can manage, I suggest tapering off of any drug or at least do an amount reduction before a total stop.

[–] HotFarts69 ago 

Ive been on the vodka for a year. Stopped for 3 days and went into convulsions to the point of hurting my back and think I ruptured my esophogus somewhere because I randomly taste blood. Ween.

[–] Spranger 0 points 1 point (+1|-0) ago 

I just passed 33 days. Best thing I have ever done for my health and my marriage. Nice work.

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