[–] ABreathlessJogger 1 point 1 point 2 points (+2|-1) ago (edited ago)
I wonder how old this is.
I was homeless for years after I got medically discharged. Wandered around for years barely able to walk and completely confused and out of my mind. Unable to understand the world around me and in so much day to day pain that I couldn't really make any kind of cohesive plan. For five years I had hallucinations, nearly constant flashbacks, frequent seizures and constant fugue. Even remembering that makes a hard cold spot form in the middle of my chest.
For a while I wandered around with other homeless combat vets here and there around the country, most of us in similar positions. For a period of years, the VA would prescribe drugs with lethal side effects to guys like us, or have us put on watch lists or try to convince us to suicide. These aren't baseless accusations, these things are a matter of historical record. I watched guys run out of the meds the va gave them and switch immediately to meth because that's what they'd been hooked on without their knowledge. This was a common, common sight. In northern NV I ran across a tribe of homeless vets similar to one I'd met living under and overpass in San Antonio. They were all quiet like this. When we get thrown away like this, by everything and everyone, one of the things you miss the most is people that know your name, can say it to you, remember that you were a person once. The difference between those two groups was meth, though. They guys in northern NV had this attitude that was like 'well, the ptsd is going to kill you, the va is going to kill you, your own people want to kill you, why not'. Nihilism replaced any hope for a future they had, because they weren't allowed to have any. Meth was pretty much all there was to make the pain and fear and hunger stop. You don't get hungry on meth. Gold for homeless people.
I went through nearly a year never hearing my name. I don't tend to initiate conversations with people. When you're homeless that means no one acknowledges you or interacts with you outside of a desperate effort to make you go away. Intellectually they know you exist, and the jew has told them that you're 'tragic' but also a savage monster and never to be approached or interacted with. That means no one speaks to you except other homeless people, who are just as empty and spent and robbed blind as you are. Don't often have much to say to each other.
This guy's eyes make me sad. I remember that look and I hated seeing it, hated seeing that accepted and resigned look of defeat. Even at the end when I caught a break and was allowed to not be homeless anymore I still saw that look in my eyes for about a year. It's not something you can believe, that it's not happening anymore and you did it, and got yourself fixed and got yourself out. And then all you can think about for years is that here you are safe indoors while they're still out there. You have all this and you can't reach them all and share it with them in gratitude for the guys that tried to help each other out instead of prey on each other. And the guilt can kill you there too. So you have to accept that there's nothing you can do for them aside from offer what you can give and make sure you look them in the eye if they can handle it and learn their names. LEARN THEIR NAMES.
When you're like that, you don't really consider tomorrow in too much detail. You can't afford to, there are too many threats and the pressure of finding safety and nourishment and shelter become constant daily struggles depending on where your crash is and what city you're in. And there are so many. The jew has convinced americans that all homeless people are evil deranged liberal drug addicts.
That's bullshit. in my own experience across years of homelessness all over the US, I can say with fair accuracy that about 30% of homeless people are combat vets. That's not saying they're all captain america or gi joe. A lot of these dudes were shitbags while they were in. When you meet them out there, though, it's become a different story for a lot of them. Well, some of them. In some of these guys you can a greatness of spirit that emerges only because they're in the situation they are in and it forces them to sweep aside a lot of the jewish cognitive distortion. The guys in SA were like this, a pretty well put together group. They drank, but they kept each other safe and shared what they had and I loved them and I miss them almost every day. That whole camp is gone now, and I wonder all the time what happened to them.
I have no idea why I wrote this. I wish I knew where this dude was. Panerra bread is a good start if he's able to keep the job, but he's not going to be able to get a place without more coming in than that, and chicago is not a friendly city for homeless people. God the way he talks and moves his head and looks around makes me remember tons of shit I wish I didn't but am also kind of glad I do.
I don't know whether to thank you for posting this or dox you and help you understand what it's like so you don't think it's a funny thing that happened to this kid, george.
EDIT. Even in this thread. LOL. This is what I'm talking about. People that believe they understand the motivations and impetus that cause homeless people to hustle. God.
[–] 24556555? 0 points 1 point 1 point (+1|-0) ago (edited ago)
Thank you for your service. I am sorry you went through that, and I am glad you are doing better now.
Too bad you were not an ex con or black or you would have gotten free housing and gubs. social workers would lay awake at night wondering if they did enough for you. Helping you fill out forms to get even more free stuff.
Instead you were just a guy who served his country and got fucked up in the process. Hell VA staff probably purposefully filled out forms wrong and withheld information to ensure you didn't get the help you needed.
You probably had no idea, and neither did your family and friends how to go about becoming a parasitic ward of the state and just took it all on the chin.
The system is fucked up brother. Sty strong.
PS the guy that makes these videos doesn't give a fuck about wounded vets. Just homos, druggies and minorities.
[–] Goddamthisiseasy 2 points -1 points 1 point (+1|-2) ago
WTF. WTF 'how to go about becoming a parasitic ward of the state" is this shit?
You are a disgrace. It is my hope that you are viciously murdered. You are a sick, sick person.
https://invidio.us/watch?v=8qI0EmfnsgM :
Cody ended up homeless after he caught his girlfriend cheating with his boss's son! - YouTube
[–] 24554421? 1 point 2 points 3 points (+3|-1) ago (edited ago)
The one thing I learned in 5 decades of living is that homeless junkies are 100% reliable to tell you a truthful story on how they ended up on the streets. Who is too blame (not them) etc.
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[–] ABreathlessJogger 1 point -1 points 0 points (+0|-1) ago
I was homeless pretty much overnight.