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[–] Not_Your_Normal_Goat 0 points 1 point (+1|-0) ago 

Hang in there man. It doesn't always get worse. It can get better. You'll learn more over time. What you learn will help you control the cycles.

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[–] Maroonsaint ago 

Nah

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[–] Not_Your_Normal_Goat 0 points 1 point (+1|-0) ago 

Yeah

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[–] oneinchterror ago 

About how old are you, Maroon? I usually picture you as a guy in his mid 30s. Am I off the mark?

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[–] Maroonsaint ago 

Yes. I’m in my mid 20s

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[–] Maroonsaint ago 

Why you wonder how old I am

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[–] edgydude69 ago 

I just started taking medication again today. Maybe you should? I mean, heroin would feel better than ssri’s, but how would I continue to be productive for ‘society’? At least this way I can be useful to my children.

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[–] Maroonsaint ago  (edited ago)

Nah. I’m really past that. I’m real close. Idk I think Iv decided. There’s not really. Idk it’s not fear stopping me anymore. It’s really dark in my head now. I didn’t think I could feel like this.

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[–] WickedVocalist ago 

Why did you have kids while the world is on the verge of nuclear war??

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[–] i_yam_wat_i_yam ago 

Surely this has a cause. I would bet that either bad or repetitive dreams go along with this, unless you partake of cannabis which suppresses dreaming.

Try noticing what actions you take that coincide with this. Could it be the weather (Seasonal Affective Disorder)? Maybe it's certain foods that do it. It could be that certain people you're around have this effect. Possibly the media you're consuming. It could be as fundamental as a lack of purpose and motivation towards a goal. Social isolation is another big one. Lack of exercise can cause it as well.

I suffered from depression for years and still do on occasion. I always find a reason behind it, like not having a job (obviously) or if I don't eat well. Many of the things I listed above have contributed to or caused my depression.

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[–] WickedVocalist ago 

Stop being anti semitic, your hate for women doesn't help

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[–] Maroonsaint ago 

I don’t hate women. I just hate myself