[–] ScootyPuffGP 0 points 1 point 1 point (+1|-0) ago
Hmmm. I really feel for you. I don't know if where you are now is the same as where I was about 4 years ago when dmt reduced me to my foundation, a shivering unemployed wreck. How could I. I suspect if we were to get talking we'd find a lot in common. More importantly 4 years later I'm happier than I've ever been. I built myself back up, with lots of work in the "real" world, and lots of work in the more subtle ones too. It's possible. If your experiences have taught you nothing else, you should have learned that anything is possible in the mental universe. Use the fractals, figure out where you want to go, then break it into baby steps you can take every day, hour, minute, breath, eyeblink to get to where your trying to go. It's amazing the progress you can make in a few months that way. Pay attention. The dmt elves were right. You have everything you need. I'm happy to talk, good luck :)
[–] BoracicBaronetYr [S] ago
"Reduced me to my foundation" is almost exactly how I would put it. I feel stuck in a rut where the rock on which I base my identity is that I am a person; no more, no less. I don't know if I ever was anything else; but it's encouraging to hear that it's possible, forever is a long time.
Thank you.
[–] hbsandpiper 0 points 2 points 2 points (+2|-0) ago
I've been thinking about you. I don't even know what to say to you but I just wanted you to know that someone read your post and cares. I have absolutely nothing wise to tell you. I hope you are doing okay.
[–] BoracicBaronetYr [S] 0 points 1 point 1 point (+1|-0) ago
Thank you. I'm genuinely touched. I'm afraid (to the extent that I still can be,) for myself; but it makes me feel better about the world (whether or not it contains me,) that there are people with empathy, altruism even in the smallest ways can make a difference. It may indeed be too late for me, I'm not a quitter or sane but I'm not without any sense of realism or perspective. Knowing there are people that care, though, people who care about strangers enough to let them know that they aren't just screaming into the wind posting on the internet, people who sit down and talk to people they've never met because it seems like they need it, people like you who didn't need to take any time at all but chose to let me know that there's still humanity out there. It makes the world seem like a brighter place.