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[–] 20628856? 0 points 3 points (+3|-0) ago  (edited ago)

Finding Jesus is best when you are at the end of your rope because there is nothing left to hold onto except him. He promises that anyone who seeks after him wholeheartedly will find him. When you find him, it is an experience that is undeniably God and cannot be explained with words alone. Fall on your face before him and surrender to his Spirit. He will bring you joy and peace beyond what the world can understand and a holy purpose that is beyond anything Q can offer.

An added edit so you know what to expect. When you start to feel/find him, he will call you to himself. It will feel like he is calling you to literally walk to your death. A feeling you will know the moment it grips you. It was the most terrifying thing I have ever encountered in my life. Take heart and know that it is his life on the other side of that crucial decision and you will come out a changed man.

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[–] 20629038? 0 points 5 points (+5|-0) ago 

Drinking and SSRIs? Really?

work out, read books, do outdoor activties, pick up a hobby where you create, make friends.

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[–] 20628974? 0 points 6 points (+6|-0) ago 

If you need a place to stay, I’ll put you up for a little while.

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[–] 20629242? 0 points 3 points (+3|-0) ago 

damn, really? Nice man. Very kind of you.

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[–] 20629924? ago 

If that’s what you need, it’s no problem to be of assistance. I like to think I’ve carved out a nice space for myself, and I’m totally willing to share.

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[–] 20628801? 0 points 6 points (+6|-0) ago 

I'm pickin' up what you're throwin' down. I was starting to slip into a deeper depression before I learned of Q. It gave me hope, until recently. I've been feeling myself slipping again. The only thing that pulls me out of it, a day at a time, is getting outside for a walk or some yardwork/gardening. Also, a break from all this helps. I will pray for you friend.

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[–] 20628590? 0 points 6 points (+6|-0) ago 

I am praying for you brother. Please find someone to talk to. Short term therapy can be very effective. Physical exercise (brisk walking or bike riding) is one of the best ways to defeat depression.

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[–] 20628359? 0 points 6 points (+6|-0) ago 

Sending you a prayer. Don't give up. Lots of good suggestions here. Can you take a walk somewhere out in nature, take a breath? Take heart friend.

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[–] 20629279? 0 points 8 points (+8|-0) ago  (edited ago)

Advice from a reformed drunk, don't go down the booze road. I don't know how far you've progressed, but it gets worse...much worse. I was a Joe Six-Pack for 25 years, drank every night but never missed a day of work (12 years at one job), but then I had a major "stressor" hit me in 2002 and I went head-first into the whiskey. HUGE quantities of whiskey, every day. You soon get to a point where you have to have some alcohol in your system just to function...4 hours was about my limit, if I didn't at least half a couple of nips I would sweat profusely and get the shakes...sometimes so bad I couldn't write legibly. Life at that point is as close as you'll ever get to Hell. It's the first thing you think about when you wake up...how much do I have on hand, is it going to be enough, you always take inventory in the morning. Then it was 3 beers before work, a couple of big chugs of Beam at lunch, and I usually had to sneak a couple of nips before my workday was over...mind you I only got away with this because I worked with a bunch of alkies who were sneaking drinks too.

Week-long detoxes 5 times, more trips to the ER than I can remember, horrific withdrawals with hallucinations that made my acid-days look tame in comparison, and a seizure. It went on for several years until I got deathly ill from sepsis and had surgery to fix a hole in my intestines that was caused by the drinking...there's a reason they call it "rot-gut". That was two and a half years ago, and I've been sober ever since. I smoke the bud when I wanna get out of my head a little, and I know it's a crutch, but it's a fuck-load better than the Jim Beam.

Point is, I wish ya well my friend...hope you work things out, but don't resort to the bottle, it will fuck you up.

OH...and if you can have a pet, get one. I have a cat (cat haters fuck off), and I have to tell ya, he brings my stress and depressions levels down incredibly.

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[–] 20632594? ago 

Super proud of you, really impressive you could come out of a hole that deep. Keep thriving dude.

Weed's a crutch but it at least makes you more empathetic and isn't physically addictive, just habit forming.

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[–] 20632813? ago 

Yeah, I know the habit-forming aspect, I get a little edgy when I run out, but at least you don't get violently ill like with the booze. Can't tell ya how many 8am trips I made to the packy...first customer of the day, and the clerk automatically grabs the pint of Beam because he knows ya. Then pulling out the cash/debit card with shaking hands, sweat running down your forehead...I often took the first slam before I pulled out of the parking space.

It's a real shitty way to live.

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[–] 20628760? 0 points 10 points (+10|-0) ago 

I'm very similar to you. I have empathy. I will pray for you. Sometimes I think we've all been duped. Sometimes I think Trump is evil and Q is legit. Sometimes I think Trump and Q are legit. Sometimes I think it's all a bs way to get people to stay complacent while Trump does things that make me frustrated. It's exhausting and confusing.

Remember two things. YOU are in control of YOU. Don't let anyone or anything dictate your life but GOD. Pray for help.

Second, question EVERYTHING. Never settle. Never accept without proof. Never allow yourself to turn a blind eye. This is why I question all motives from everyone. At sometime in our history, we started blindly trusting people, stopped questioning their motives and got taken advantage of.

Also, as a former alcoholic, lay off the sauce. It makes you feel good, it takes away the problems for the time, but the next morning, the problems are still there and you have a hang over to deal with. Drinking is not a solution to your problems, it's just another problem you'll have to deal with.

Keep your head up.

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