it's tough, man! Same boat but if your light goes out you let the darkness in. You CAN train your brain to be happy. Go walk. Exercise. Do something that makes you feel good. It might only be for a few minutes but like training your body to get strong, you can train your brain to get happy. I know. I did it. I do take zoloft but that's only so my brain doesn't rebel against me. As a friend's therapist told him, your brain lies. Don't listen to it. vote and keep hope. carry on.
It seems as though your problem is Spiritual, not mental. My suggestion is to seek out a Spiritual guide. We all have our 4 levels of health- spiritual, emotional, mental and physical. I believe that spirituality is the foundations for good health and when you have strong spiritual roots, it is a lot easier to regulate the other areas of your life.
Relying on others to achieve happiness is the wrong path to follow. Only YOU can make yourself happy.
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Hope things get better for you! Take all the time you need.