The calculator thing is less about making you an idiot or whatever shady shit the GATEniggers were up to and more because the maths becomes less about learning and familiarizing yourself with basic arrithmatic (which is why you got in trouble for using a calculator in primrary school; you needed to intuitively understand + and - and whatnot) and more about different ways to use basic arrithmatic. This means that a) they no longer give a fuck how quickly you can solve 420X69 in your head and b) the class will complete the work faster and therefore learn more by using calculators.
The bullying you experience at school sounds like some sort of social experiment. Especially since the counselor also didn't give a fuck about how you were feeling. She was merely reporting the results of the experiment, and probably glad they managed to fuck you up.
This whole thing reminds me of our situation in society now. Others are doing the bullying (raping, violence), but conservative White men get blamed for being disruptive (racist, evil, violent).
THAT'S IT! THAT'S MY ENTIRE EARLY SCHOOL YEARS!
Even my parents described it as "they only see your reaction" at the time, never doubting when I described the bullying aimed at me. Yet only I was ever punished, the bullies just got away with it. Every fucking time. Well, not in the long run, they've since gotten theirs, but at the time… I could understand the school shooters but I saw the school itself as the problem, not my classmates.
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Fuck I never thought about the bullying and discrimination from the teachers
I never recognized it until now. But it happened to me, too.
did anyone have childhood fears of general MK Ultra shit? Every time something like that would come up in a cartoon I would be overcome with absolute fear.
No fear, but, now that I think of it, a bizarre interest in that type of conspiracy theory. My dad let me read all the books I wanted, but I remember somehow knowing to never speak of those. A strange-as-fuck interest for that age, too, now that I think about it.
The way I see it they have one of two goals with "gifted children"
- create autistic super soldiers
or
- (most likely scenario) they were trying to inhibit those who would have the most potential to be an autistic super soldier.
Or both. Two competing factions. I may have been in a place where the dominant faction kept changing. Sucks to be (((faction 2))) if the leads I've got now pan out. Thanks, Paperclip.
Another theme that was present in these threads was that most of us had a feeling that we were born to become something much greater, to become ubermensch, to reach out for the stars. Then something … changed and we ended up being largely disappointed. Some anons posted theories how we were programmed for space colonization through certain media but something didn't go according to plan.
I think I know that plan and I think I know (((what))) (((changed))) too.
Back in elementary school, we had a thing called the "Mad Minute" where students were given a sheet of paper with basic arithmetic problems and told to solve as many as the possibly could within 60 seconds. High scores were rewarded with bonus points, and a near-perfect score provided a small bag of candy on the last day of school. In third grade (age 8), before GATE, I was so good at the Mad Minute that the teachers actually had to stop rewarding me with future bags of candy – I had already earned more than I could possibly eat. Fast forward two years later and I could hardly even solve a fifth of the Mad Minute sheets. My mental organization had deteriorated to the point that I had lost the ability to solve most simple math problems with high confidence.
this was my case aswell, but they really hammered it home in early high school. I was able to do the math reasonably well in my head but they wouln't accept it without work on paper, I said "FUCK YOU" and eventually quit trying, and even trying to get as bad a score as possible by circling every question on a test in 2 second and saying DONE, they killed my creative ability and I will never forgive them for that treachery.
I've taught myself single/multivariable calculus and studied about half of the coursework associated with the CAS Exam 1 and/or SOA Exam P (actuarial probability) using ACTEX manuals. I also studied calculus-based physics on my own (Griffith's Introduction for QM and ED).
Because you're a delusional retard grasping at straws? Try harder, kike.
I moved cities just a couple of months ago (Dallas now) but yeah, I was in Houston for over two decades.
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Thank you for the kind words, anons.