[–] Zimhotep [S] 0 points 1 point 1 point (+1|-0) ago
That's basically how I feel. I used to be very disciplined and motivated, but it all kind of died away. A friend of mine told me I just haven't found my calling yet, though I know I'll love what I do once I finish my major.
From what I've learned, motivation only gets you so far. All it really does is encourage you to do something, but it doesn't make you do it. I'd say focus more on getting disciplined rather than finding motivation. I'm considering joining the military after I graduate just to get more disciplined, but I've yet to decide on that.
[–] foxyface 0 points 2 points 2 points (+2|-0) ago
Just a thought - maybe you've been having difficulty because you're overwhelmed. College is very different than high school and along with it come a lot of stresses that you've never had before. Try breaking everything down into manageable pieces and tackling them one at a time. Since you have an exam tomorrow, focus on that right now and don't try to multitask with other things that aren't as time sensitive. Then after your exam, take some time to unplug/decompress for a little while and then make a plan of action for the next thing you have coming up. I know that I slip into a fog and can't think straight if I'm overwhelmed. Good luck tomorrow, you'll do great!!
Thank you Foxyface! Overwhelming myself is one of the things that I think threw me off during my senior year. I joined over ten clubs and became the officer of six of them, which was manageable, but never gave me time to breathe. I feel I may have just burned myself out before the real work began, and now I'm left with nothing to run off of. I'll make sure to set aside more time and not take up so many obligations.
[–] foxyface 0 points 1 point 1 point (+1|-0) ago
Wow, that's really impressive! Don't spread yourself too thin, quality over quantity. When I was in college, I was really active in and lead a group but at the expensive of my grades. If I could go back in time, I would definitely put more emphasis on get really good grades and keeping the extracurriculars as enjoyable things to do to break up my day.
[–] TheLandsOfSummer ago
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I'm still troubled by it, but luckily things are looking a bit better. Let's just say I'm about 1/4th of way out of the deep dark hole and I don't want to fall.
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[–] Zimhotep [S] 0 points 1 point 1 point (+1|-0) ago
I once had a friend who suffered from a lot of psychological issues. The difference was that I feel she never really wanted the help, but rather just the attention. I don't doubt what she told me. She had many issues at home which I know attributed to her condition, but she never made an effort to improve her situation even when there were others there ready to help. A family offered her their home and were willing to adopt her, but she just told me that it made her uncomfortable and then broke her connections with them. Then she'd go off with someone else, talk to them about her issues, and then break connections when they got too eager to help. The cycle would just repeat itself. I do hope she's fine and is working on accepting help.
I'm kind of just rambling on at this point. I'm glad you found a comfortable alternative Polkadotgirl. It shows you really want to improve rather than just give up and let the issues consume you. I'd say go out and find a friend who will listen to all you have to say. If you don't want that just yet, I'd say get a pet if you don't have one already. They can't really converse with you, but the companionship is nice.
I've been having a lot of psychological issues lately. My depression has been getting worse and I'm going to bed hoping to never wake up. I swear I am not just trying to be melodramatic.
I've been feeling so confused lately. Nothing is making sense - even my own thoughts are jumbled and not concice. It's miserable not being able to think because my internal phonograph is skipping.
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I should be in school or at least working if just to keep me busy - but I can't even muster the willpower to go find a job - its already hard enough to remind myself I need to eat because I have not eaten since yesterday afternoon.
[–] DIctatorDom ago
Lately, when I'm out, I'm just wishing to be home alone. I've always loved my solitude, but it might be to an unhealthy extent recently.
[–] Heptite 0 points 5 points 5 points (+5|-0) ago
Poor health, lack of money.
[–] Zimhotep [S] ago
Is the poor health from an illness or just not being active?
[–] Heptite ago
Primarily illness, but probably both.