[–] Fckmylife [S] 0 points 1 point 1 point (+1|-0) ago
I never got drunk up until 3 years ago (I had a major trauma 6 years ago) and then I started to purposely self medicate with alchohol because I was on the verge of a suicide and I heard it might help. So it was worth the try and it did actually help :/ So I kept using alchohol when I was really down..
I've quit for 1-3 months at a time but I just feel I never ever get a single day where I feel good if not drinking and I feel like I need some to survive.. I know how stupid it sounds and I didn't have much sympathy for alcholics my self before I became one, but that is me now :(
I feel really sorry for my son. He has nobody but me, and I'm like this. I try only to drink after he goes to sleep but specially when it has been long I cant stop and am still drunk in the morning and even when he comes home from school.. I've tried to quit because of him, but like before I started drinking I then seem only to have energy for work and sleep, like sleep all evenings and whole weekends.. No matter what I try, I cant be a proper good mom :(
[–] Fckmylife [S] 0 points 1 point 1 point (+1|-0) ago
My son actually seems amused when I'm drunk because I get upbeat, happy, funny, Ive been told.. But he seems to like it only sometimes and other times he tells me he doesnt like it.. therefore Im asking if someone has had a parent like that or similar that were ok
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[–] Fckmylife [S] 0 points 2 points 2 points (+2|-0) ago
I'm not sure. Was seeing him drunk and realizing he had a problem the "only problem"?
[–] Fckmylife [S] 0 points 2 points 2 points (+2|-0) ago
That + didn't want help?
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